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Journal Entry: Sat Apr 26, 2008, 5:05 AM
  • Mood: Distressed
  • Listening to: Rise Against - Prayer Of The Refugee

Okay so I feel like shit, thinking about few things, not sure what I'm gonna do...
Need to talk to this person, I can't keep fucking around with my own mind as well as my feelings.
I'm more or less lost. So very lost and confused and I don't know what to do.

Lol I see no future and I have no freaking plans for anything. This is a bad thing?

I can't see even past next week.. I don't know how other people can like see and plan out their future and what not.

I don't get it. Then again I never could and never can. Maybe its my depression. But really I don't care.

How... how pathetic of me?
Oh and I really feel like getting back into my old habits, being even more self destructive I miss it. muahahhahaaha owww how sad/pathetic. But it would go so well with my insane laughing right about now. Yeah god I miss the feeling..

I want what I can't have and I have what I don't want, isn't that great.

Sorry I'm just ranting odds are nobody will even read all of this, or say anything in relation to this journal. I need somewhere to write again ><

Prayer Of The Refugee
Don’t hold me up now,
I can stand my own ground,
I don’t need your help now,
You will let me down, down, down!

Don’t hold me up now,
I can stand my own ground,
I don’t need your help now,
You will let me down, down, down!

Down!


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~annikene414 Apr 26, 2008, 5:52:15 AM
Your mood at the moment reminds me of a song called "When Angels Deserve To Die" from System Of A Down. But you're not alone, other people also don't have plans for the future, I'm worse than you(not that you're bad, hell no!): I can't even look past two days! :XD: But, f*** you, who can make plans for the next two years. :P At least, that's my opinion. AND YOU! You wrote that noone'll read this journal, but look at me! I read it. ;P

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~meccanoiddream Apr 26, 2008, 9:14:14 AM
Don't think so much about the future. Especially because the future is mostly out of our control. It sounds like your stuck in a depression cycle. Try to be calm and see if you can escape it. Remember we can't change the things around us, only the way we feel about it. Sounds difficult I know, but we have to try

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~cryingpain Apr 26, 2008, 5:34:08 PM
Haha did you have nothing else to do? oh wait you think I'm like a great person or something lololol
Thanks for reading it anyways :P
I got to at lest make something like a plan otherwise it means I won't have started an assignment or 3 which are like due in that week or next. :| FTW!!!

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~cryingpain Apr 26, 2008, 5:36:12 PM
Indeed I am stuck ><
Bah but if I don't try and think about my future what will I do later? After my Tafe course etc. Gah FTW!!! I change my feelings and mind towards everything why to often.

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=Princekarr Apr 27, 2008, 12:11:06 AM
Oh no you sound like you are in the same spot as me right now. Everything seems utterly pointless. What we need is 'something' but I coulnd't tell you what since I am being utterly pointless myself :(

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~annikene414 Apr 27, 2008, 12:49:42 AM
FTW indeed. No I had something else to do, but I still read it. :P Well, yeah, everyone's great in some way, neh? Except the people born evil. XD But they're great at being evil?

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~cryingpain Apr 27, 2008, 3:34:32 AM
LoL

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~cryingpain Apr 27, 2008, 3:35:40 AM
Hurrah! wow this really sucks. I'm getting worse and worse by the day.

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~meccanoiddream Apr 27, 2008, 7:53:50 AM
I know the cycle your describing well. It happens to me as well. Uncertainty about the future just seems to take all the essence out of living. It's ok to change your mind. It means your exercising your right to free thinking thought. Just make sure your changing your mind for the right reason. Maybe you should simplify your life on a day-to-day basis. Maybe you feel confined? Look at the freedoms you do have and compare it to the freedoms you don’t have. That way you always keep things in perspective. Not knowing what’s going to happen tomorrow is priceless in itself. It means you can do whatever you want, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. Do you enjoy the course?

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